Well, hello there stranger! How are you all doing? I can’t believe Christmas has already come and gone, and now we’re anticipating what the new year will reveal in our lives. Who knows if it will bring life changing opportunities, exciting ambitions and reachable goals.. all I know is whatever it may have in store for me, I hope it’s better than what 2017 has been like. I’ve barely managed to reach the last few days without nearly pulling my hair out, stealing a spaceship and venturing off to the moon, where no-one can give me a headache. Well, apart from myself that is. Sounds bliss right?! Whats your favourite get a way place? Let me know in the comments down below.. Mine has to be my bed, it’s cosy, quiet and big enough to share with my cat. Who let me add, takes up most of the space. Even though It’s a double bed! Please don’t ask how that is possible for such a small creature.
As we come up to the time of entering 2018, we begin to reflect on how the previous year has gone down. What made us grow, what made us weak and what made every situation seem near impossible to conquer. I can without a doubt say 2017 has been a rollercoaster of a ride that I’ve wanted to get off since I first sat down in the seat. I’ve lost people, gained people, seen my confidence slip away from my grip every so often, had difficulties understanding parts of my depression, and had to understand it’s ok to let go sometimes. This year has been the time that has made me realise I’m stronger than I think, and that when it comes down to it I can get through near enough any battle I’m faced with. However, if I look beneath all of those bad moments, I’m able to smile about everything amazing that has happened. Such as, meeting my best friend Kim. Who is one of the most inspiring, beautiful and bubbly people I’ve ever had the chance of meeting. even at the times where I’ve been at my lowest, she has been right there giving me as much support as she possibly can. We’ve also been able to share some very iconic and funny times which has made every bad day worth it. I’ve grew closer with some of the lovely girls in the blogging community, which makes my annual visits to twitter even more bright and cheerful! I even got some beautiful Christmas cards from some of them. Which I shall treasure forever! My bond with my family has blossomed, and I’m slowly beginning to open up about my bad days and share those little moments of confusion and sadness. Which has made them much easier to get through. I’ve also been able to control my mood swings in situations that I feel I’ve got on someones nerves, or upset them. This has been one of the most difficult and time consuming aspects of my life that I’ve had to come to terms with. But, if I compare to a year ago. They’ve definitely improved, even if it’s the slightest bit of improvement. Thats enough for me to be happy about! Although I’ve reached some of my lowest points, and found it near impossible to get through at certain times. It doesn’t take away from the fact that I’ve had some of the happiest, inspiring and life changing moments. If I named every one, it would probably take me hours to write and I’m struggling to just write this post! Don’t laugh at me, my fingers aren’t used to this much typing again, haha! So, I will leave you with just them highlights for now.
What are my hopes for 2018? I’m hoping, I can work on loving who I am, flaws included. Which means not pointing out all of the negatives the second I step in front of the mirror. Instead, finding at least one aspect of my self that I like, or admire. I also want to learn to bring more positivity and memorable moments into my friendships. I’m not saying sharing deep, heartfelt conversations is unhealthy and bad because it’s most definitely not, what I’m saying is I want to slowly decrease that and increase the enjoyable ones. Otherwise I’m going to end up only allowing people to always see me for my bad, low days and not my happy ones. Which isn’t fun for anyone! including myself. And lastly, I want to enjoy life. I want to go out on adventures, laugh until I feel the warm tears rolling down my cheek. (Happy tears that is!) Get up out of bed in the morning, and not enter it again until I see the moon appear. And tell my self it’s ok to be happy, not everyone in this world is going to hurt me. As we all know every year is unknown, what lies ahead is something we have to see for ourselves. But if I have been able to get through sixteen of them. I’m pretty sure, with the right people around me, the biggest heart and a clear mind I can get through more to come!
To close off this post, I just want say thank you. From the bottom of my heart, for continuing to give out the most wonderful, uplifting and heartfelt support a girl could ask for. YOU are the reason why I’m able to do all of the amazing things I do, YOU are the reason why I can come onto my page and smile at all of the beautiful comments in front of me. And YOU are the reason I’m going to try my absolute hardest to write the best content I can in the future! Have an amazing new year lovelies, you all deserve it! I will see you all very soon.
Lots of love.. x