Today is going to be a little bit different. I have no intention for this blog post to become popular among many people. Because quite frankly it has no real purpose, except to give myself (17 year old Emily, who spends the majority of her time watching AbFab and Mrs Browns Boys in the comfort of her own bed!) something to look back on when I’m older. Right now I’m in my first year at Sixth Form, studying Sociology and English Language. With the hopes of becoming a highly trained counsellor. Did I ever reach that dream? Did I think it was going to be how it really is? Or was I just blind to how time consuming and emotionally draining it would actually become? You always dreamt of becoming a counsellor, ever since you found the expectations of achieving the high grades needed to become a vet far from reachable. Even if you did always dream of it happening! Am I just hoping too much, and the fantasy of becoming a counsellor didn’t actually happen? What am I doing now? All I hope for you, is that you’re happy. Whatever you’re doing. Even if it did end in a Saturday night, cuddled up with what I hope would be a cat (If you don’t have a cat already, stop reading this and GO GET ONE!) and crying because life just feels like its just too much. But you made it. All those nights when you were 17, that felt never ending. Like you would never see the sun appear from behind the darkened clouds. All those times you faced town, which felt like you were entering a war zone and the chances of getting out emotionally unhurt were far from imaginable. You made it. Hows the side of friendships? You really have had a rollercoaster ride with them. Honestly Emily, believe your seventeen year old self, when I say you’ve really had a rollercoaster ride with them. My biggest hope, is that you’ve managed to maintain some. Are they the ones you had at seventeen? If you’re still not best friends with Kim, I’m telling you off now! I give you permission to find where she is, and give her a big hug until she lets you back into her life. But please, explain who you are! I don’t want you getting arrested for hugging a person without them knowing who on earth the person is. Or are they brand new? If they are where did you meet them? What made you become friends with them? Have you managed your goal for 2018, which was to have less negativity thinking in friendships, and more positivity? If not, try now. It’s not too late! Really Emily, you may think if you haven’t achieved any of the things mentioned it’s too late. But it’s not, it never is. Hows blogging? I hope you’re still doing it, even if its less frequently and just as a hobby, because at seventeen it helped you. It helped you to let emotions out that were once locked in. It helped you to have those few hours writing about things you loved. Which were beauty, inspirational talking and lifestyle posts. Thats one thing you never let anyone stop you doing Emily, you never let anyone hold you back with your blogging. Yes, you used to spell definitely wrong, and yes you used to change your thumbnails every second because your OCD took over. But you loved it! And I truly hope you still do. If not, please try! I promise you, it will help if you’re in a momentary phase of feeling sluggish and low. Maybe you will turn the theme of the blog into cooking?! Although, that isn’t the best of ideas for yourself at seventeen, because trust me when I say this. You can’t cook! You do try, but I’ll just stick with pot noodles, if it’s still that way now. Its Thursday 4th January 2017, you’ve just celebrated your Seventeenth birthday, been given an exciting opportunity to work along side a brand, and you’ve began working on bettering yourself. Life is ok Emily, and I hope life is ok now. As you’re reading this, with a partner by your side or on a drunken night with your friends as you all look back on your childhoods. I hope you have reached every dream you ever wanted. And if not, I hope reading this small message gives you the push to go out and achieve them. Don’t ever forget how many challenges you have faced, and got through. Don’t ever forget the friendships you lost, and the ones you gained. And, lastly don’t forget who you are. Life may be hard still, but please try Emily. For once, you deserve to stay happy, and be confident in yourself. Lets just hope the future you’re in now, is some what brighter than the one we’re looking at facing. It’s crazy! I’m proud of you for getting through those tough times, and I’m proud of you for not giving up when life gave you so many reasons to do so. I will end this blog post now, to continue the exciting adventures that will eventually lead to the day you’re reading this on now! xo
𝘖𝘩, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘭𝘶𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘪𝘤𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘴, 𝘺𝘦𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘌𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘺. 𝘐𝘵’𝘴 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘪𝘯𝘤𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘥𝘰𝘯’𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘨! 𝘋𝘰𝘯’𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘯’𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯 𝘰𝘧 𝘢 𝘴𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘰𝘭𝘥!